in that soft spot under the ribs
where in CPR class they say if you push too hard
you'll break the end of the breast bone
settle into it
get used it pushing in one direction
the hand turns the knife
rocks it this way and that for a while
changes direction
tests my nerve
it stops
settle in again
it returns
swallow a handful of little brown pills
and wait
it stays for hours
then leaves
there's an emptiness left behind
euphoric
blank white space
and sleep comes.
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